I am sitting here this morning with all kinds of thoughts swirling through my mind. The horrible actions of the past few days have me feeling a little more depressed about the state of our nation than normal. I am definitely a glass is half-full kind of girl, but I am having a hard time seeing the bright side today. I just see people, of all colors and races, hurting. I see pain and anguish in their faces, and I don’t see any answers.
My Sunday posts are supposed to be inspirational, so you can see my struggle. How do you shed happiness and sunshine when there seems to be so much sadness and darkness? I was just staring at the computer screen, not knowing even where or how to proceed. I looked over to the right where it shows how well my post is written. It will say either, OK, Good, or in this case, Needs Improvement. Keep in mind that I hadn’t even typed the first word, so I guess it did need improvement. But, I thought that my post was not the only thing that needed improvement.
The list is long for the things that needs improvement in my life. I need to be a better housekeeper, a better employee, a better planner, a better wife, the list in my personal life could go on and on. In my spiritual life, the list is probably even longer. I need to pray more, I need to study more, I need to have more faith, I need to worry less, I need to be more forgiving, and I need to remember to give God the glory. Once again, I could go on and on and on.
Here’s the thing, I am the only one who can change any of those items. I can’t hire it out, I can’t wish it done, and even though I can pray, ultimately it is only “me” that I can change. If you are on FaceBook, you will see thousands of shared meme’s. These are the little sayings that people put as their status. Some are inspirational, some are funny, some are political, etc. There is one for any emotion that you are feeling. You can just look at what a person is “sharing” and know what is going on in their life. I was looking this week at the hundreds of little shared posts, and I couldn’t help thinking that this was the wrong answer. You read a little passage about doing something to help others, and then you share the post. Why not instead go actually “help” others? You read a passage about being lonely and sad, and then you share the post. Why not join a club, call a friend, volunteer to help out at a food bank? You would be surprised how much better you would feel with actual human contact, instead of just looking at the computer. I am not trying to make light of anyone’s struggles. EVERYBODY has struggles! I am just saying that we have to at least try to fix ourselves.
Today is a brand new day, and with it brings all kinds of new opportunities. I am going to start fresh. I am not going to beat myself up over what is in the past. I CANNOT change anything that is in the rearview mirror. I am going to focus on what is in front of me, and move forward.
Please continue to pray for this nation. Maybe, just maybe, when the storm passes by, there will be a silver lining.