I’ve never been great at sticking to my New Year’s Resolutions. Each year, I’m able to stick to them for a couple of months, but then they end up slowly slipping away. However, last year I made a resolution, and I am proud to say that I stuck with it.
You are already aware that I share a Verse Of The Day at the end of each non-sponsored blog post. I also do a faith and inspiration post on Sunday, but last year I decided to try and do even more. My resolution was to share a Bible verse and a prayer each day on my Instagram Stories. I feel like the Lord blessed me with a platform, and I wanted to use it to give Him all of the Glory that I could.
I started sharing a verse and a prayer with lots of joy, and I loved getting messages from people telling me they loved seeing the posts. After a few months, I started to feel the pressure to make sure that I didn’t miss a day. Several times I had someone message me at the end of the day saying they missed my post, and I had forgotten to make one. So, I quickly grabbed my phone and put the post on my stories.
As the year was drawing to an end, I found myself struggling to make this simple post. I had to set an alarm, and I was almost dreading making the post. I couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me, and I keep telling myself that the year was almost over. Finally, December 31st rolled around, and I celebrated that I had been able to stick with my resolution, it was the first one that I’ve ever stuck with for an entire year.
Then, 2022 rolled around, and I couldn’t make myself put up a post. Several ladies messaged me and said they were missing my posts, but I still couldn’t bring myself to make the post. I kept asking myself what was the problem, but I didn’t have an answer. One day this week, I got another message about the verse and the prayer. I looked at the message, and then I closed it back up. I couldn’t even answer the lady back, especially since I didn’t know what was the problem.
Finally, I came upon the answer to my problem, it is called the Elijah Syndrome. Basically, I was experiencing burnout. I had taken all of the joy out of sharing the word of the Lord and had turned it into a job. I was feeling like I had to check off a box by the end of the day, and I had made this something I HAD to do instead of something that I WANTED to do.
1 Kings 19:4-5.
4 while he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” 5 Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep.
Elijah was spent! He was exhausted and he was tired! The Lord knew Elijah needed to rest, and that he also needed to have the fire reignited in him. That was exactly how I was feeling. I was tired, burned out, and I didn’t want something else added to my to-do list.
After figuring out what the issue was, I decided to once again see if I could find the joy in sharing a verse and a prayer. I opened my Bible app, and when I read my daily verse, I felt a spark that made me take a screenshot to share. This time, when I posted the verse and prayer on my Instagram Stories, I felt joy! I wasn’t checking off a to-do list, I was sharing because I wanted to, and it made me happy.
Going forward, I am going to give myself some Grace. There may be days when things don’t go as planned, and I don’t get to make a post. Instead of feeling guilty, or like I have failed, I will pray that the next day will be better, and I will share my post with joy, not out of obligation.
To God Goes The Glory!
Have A Blessed Day!