WALK THE WALK
Did you read my post that had the video with Beth Moore where she was talking about being at the airport? In the video, she told about having a conversation with the Lord. Actually, she talked about how she was telling the Lord that she didn’t want to do something. Of course, she eventually gave in and did what the Lord asked her to do and she was blessed by the decision.
I remember being just a little jealous that the Lord would talk to her and I had never “heard” the Lord speak to me. I am not that jealous anymore. On my way to work one morning last week I had a conversation with the Lord. HE was weighing on my heart about my post last Sunday. The conversation went something like this:
“Tania, isn’t there someone that you need to forgive?” I don’t “want” to forgive them, Lord. “Tania, didn’t you write about forgiveness on Sunday?” Yes, but I am not “ready” to forgive yet. “Tania, were you only pretending to do my will?” No, Lord. It is just I want them to “pay” for what it is they have done. “Tania, don’t you think they have already paid?” Yes, Lord, they have. But “I” didn’t make they pay. “Tania, are you trying to do my job?” No, Lord. “Tania, do you want to be forgiven for your mistakes?” Yes, of course, I do, Lord. “Tania, haven’t you made the same mistake over and over again?” Yes, Lord. “Tania, you HAVE to forgive!” But, I really don’t want to. And then there was silence. That was even worse than the words. I tried again, I really don’t want to. More silence. It finally dawned on me that I HAD to forgive. I HAD to say the words and I HAD to mean the words.
I am not sure that the Lord was actually “talking” to me but HE was using my thoughts to get His point across. I sat in the parking lot at work for a few minutes before I finally said the words, “I forgive.” Then I said a prayer for the person and went into work.
I am learning that forgiving is easier said than done but I am really trying. I know that the devil is still placing thoughts and situations in my way trying to make sure that I hold onto my anger. I am glad that I am now walking the walk and Beth Moore was right, He can be very bossy.
Have A Blessed Day!
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It’s funny how the Lord will get you. (I’ve heard Beth tell the airport story in person. She’s a mess. A loveable and relatable mess.) I had 2 incidents recently where He got me. One was a child (first grader!) running down the middle of a busy street. I made sure to get him home (and the home struck me as sketchy…I asked him about his school and teacher then sent her an email; yes there are confidentiality issues but I didn’t expect her to fill me in, just to follow up, which she assured me she would do). Then, 2 days later, I saw a sweet neighbor whose son has gone down more than a “wrong path.” Like think of the worst your child could do. Literally. I had had a couple of rough days at work and seeing her with terrible grief in her eyes reminded me that my little problems didn’t matter much at all. And the day I saw her was his birthday. We cried together. I can’t even imagine. Please pray for him and his family. His name is Taylor.
I can’t imagine how horrible your neighbor feels. I will put Taylor in my prayers. Maybe he will start “feeling” the prayers from everyone.
Thanks. When it’s all over, I’ll share the story with you privately. XOXO
Once again we’re on the same wavelength. We spoke about this at our Sunday Bible Study. There are a few of us, myself included, that are strugging with that. Thank you again for your inspirational posts.
Seems like you are getting there. Well done, we are all human and hurt is part of not wanting to forgive. P.S. weather did not allow me to wear my planned fuchia and melon outfit that was inspired by yours. When I do I will send pic. Have a great week, love all the info. Keep Sharing.
I remember hearing the story years ago of Beth Moore at the Airport, I thought that was the most awesome story. How God works in our life can be so amazing and scary at the same time. But when it comes to forgiveness, it is
so hard to do,sometimes. I have faith, God knows my heart, but certain situations are so “unforgiving”, but God has had to work with me a lot, and showed me how much better I would feel and be, day by day, if I forgave.!!
I am so glad I found your site and I love your clothes, thank you.
Beautiful message! Forgiveness is hard, but well worth it,
A little over a year ago I had un forgiveness towards a person. I knew that I had to have God’s help on this one so I started praying blessings over this person though I DID NOT WANT TO then I started asking God to fill me with HIS love for this person. It didn’t happen over night but gradually I could feel a love and a forgiveness for this person then pretty soon I had such a deep love and compassion for this individual that could have ONLY come from God! So I guess what I am saying is instead of me trying to change this person I asked God to change me and fill my heart with HIS love. It wasn’t an easy process but this was nothing compared to what JESUS went through for us!
Thanks, Tara, for sharing. It is a process. I expect to take a step forward and two back occasionally but I have faith that the Lord will help me along the way.
Thank you Tania for your honest heart in this Sunday post and the Beth Moore video. I needed BOTH. ~Lisa~
I had a very wise pastor that told me you have to forgive. Not just for the other person but more for yourself. Because the not forgiving festers in your heart. I loved the Beth Moore video because she hit the nail on the head. We need to do what God asks, even when it’s hard. He DOES know best. Great post!
Awesome word, thank you.
Tania, I find that when I say these words out loud, “I choose today with my free will to forgive ___ for what they did/said to me,” (and I say out loud what they did that I had a hard time forgiving) it helps not only my ears to hear but also my heart. I am also declaring in the spirit realm that I am being obedient to my Father and putting the enemy on notice so that when he tries to flood my memory with the hurt or offense, I am quicker to say, “NO, I chose to forgive them for that! That is in the past and my Father is going to deal with them in His timing in His way and He will take care of it so I don’t have to! Leave me alone, devil!” (James 4:7) Then forgiveness comes to my heart and the pain is less. I know in my mind that the offense happened but the pain doesn’t rule my heart. God always honors our obedience. I hope that helps you and your readers.