I am sure most of you have experienced being hurt by someone you cared about. Or, maybe you have been the one who hurt someone even though it was unintentional. It doesn’t matter if you were on the receiving end or the dishing out end, both of these come to a conclusion with forgiveness.
I always write about what I struggle and deal with myself. This past week I have been dealing with forgiveness and trying to love my neighbor. The truth is, I am simply trying to like my neighbor because loving would be too big a stretch of the imagination. The real problem is me and the fact that I am being petty. This person didn’t hurt me, I just got my feelings hurt, and they have no idea they even did anything. Boy, I bet all of you have been there before. Anyway, every time this person’s name comes up in conversation, I feel myself snarling inside. I will quickly squash the feeling, and no one ever knows that inside I am holding a grudge.
I was in bed last night thinking about this because I couldn’t go to sleep. I prayed for the Lord to open my heart and to take away those feelings. I know that forgiveness is the answer and I have tried over and over to rid myself of these feelings. I don’t even know why they persist because it wasn’t a huge or horrible issue in the first place. I have forgiven other people for much worse matters, so why won’t this leave my soul?
13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
I hate it when the Lord spells something out for me in black and white. It is hard to read Colossians 3:13 and not understand that I am to forgive since the Lord has forgiven me. Believe me; I have done much worse things than the small grievance that I am holding on to.
When I think about the things that the Lord has forgiven me for and wiped them entirely away, I am humbled. As I sit here typing this post, I feel myself letting go finally. I feel a lightness that I haven’t felt before when I think about this person. I feel happy and giddy. I know the real challenge will be when the name of the person is mentioned again in conversation, but right now I am feeling confident that whatever was blocking me from forgiving has left me.
14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
I am glad that I had already felt the burden leave me before I read Matthew 6:14-15. You can believe that this verse would have shaken me to the core otherwise.
The message is clear…forgive to be forgiven!
Have A Blessed Day!